I feel a bit sick - it's that kind of stressy sickness that can only be cured with some organisation, hard work, headspace and tea.Tomorrow I have an interview and I feel quite unprepared. The last interview I had with that bank was tough and not only have I not really stepped up my game since then as planned, but if anything I'm extra rusty and out-of-it when it comes to Finance after all the time off and different experiences I've had lately.
This is good. I tend to be nervous before interviews and confident during them. I also tend to be able to pull out knowledge that's been buried deep within my brain when I need it, whether that's some mathematical knowledge for an interview or exam, or my high school Spanish in a Barcelona police station when my belongings had been stolen. I'll be ok when I walk in there.
It's a little more than just that though... finances, accounting, pending Columbia decisions, all the work we're doing on the back of the delegation trip, my ever-growing inbox... all of it is getting to me today, and I can't help dreaming of being somewhere beautiful and peaceful, far away from life's worries, or failing that, the place Herman Hesse referred to when he said this
"Within you there is a stillness and a sanctuary to which you can escape at any time and be yourself"
Your South African holiday is not far off...so hang in there! Africa will give you the stillness you yearn for - She is awesome like that :o)
ReplyDeleteI know! SIX WEEKS! :D
ReplyDeleteFeeling so much better today. The interview went fairly well... feedback was positive but they're interviewing some more candidates so we'll see.
I seem to have a 'storm before the calm' approach to interviews, applications, etc!