"Try Again. Fail Again. Fail Better"

I'm trying very hard to remember the wise words of Irish playwright Samuel Beckett.

The whole Columbia thing is just too hard. It's too much money. I've missed too many scholarship deadlines. I can't imagine a situation where I'll be able to get the funding together and I can't apply for something I can't imagine.

I am demoralised to the point of inactivity, which I can accept, especially if I look at it as a temporary state that I'll hopefully spring out of soon. But worse, I feel as though I am unbelievably close to giving up, and that is much less palatable.

So I am trying. Trying very hard to try again.